A smile so bright
It gave off it's own light
And why put up a fight
She was irresistible
Wide eyes that were so blue
She saw things
That you thought no one knew
Short Sandy brown hair
Whipping around her face every which were
Not that she had a care
In the world
I remember that day
When that notion went a stray
Where there was no more play
We were only in fourth grade and we discovered what
Real Life was.
We pull up to her bus stop
Blinded by Red, blue and white lights of the cop
Her father seated on the front step
She was out of her depth
The Uniform lead her to the bus where she plopped down
Her story soon to be the talk of the town
She didn't dare look around
But we all knew
What she had been through
We all knew
The fat lip where blood trickled down her chin
The deep purple bruises on her eyes, hand, and shin
Her eyes dull from pain within.
Oh yes, we all knew.
Fast forward years later
We only saw that facade of the irresistible girl
But I had already seen that image unfurl
Long sleeves covered secrets from razors drug across porcelain skin
A pressure cooker releasing the pain from within
She saw shit we couldn't even begin
to imagine.
Fast forward again
She isn't so irresistible anymore
Beaten down to a lowly whore
Weight of Secrets too many she bore
I look at the girl I adore
Poppin' pills every night
Suckin' dicks to the morning light
This was her reality, her fight
Letting men reach inside
Beating and raping as she tried to hide
Those secrets would not subside
More drugs to not feel
More wounds that just wouldn't heal
No fuckin' clue on how to deal
This was my girl
What the hell happend to my girl?
Fast-forward again,
She is in a different place
Learning to heal, grow, and take space
Slender fingers with bitten nails covered in neon blue chipped nail polish
tap tap taping over keys
Conveying these stories to me
I wish I could have told her now what I see
Because that girl use to be
and is again me
