Beauty

Beauty comes in many shades

Though tragedy seems to fade

These colors

And as I sit trying to find my beauty within

I struggle to fit in

Feeling like a freak

Self doubt can be covered by a mask

Such a daunting task

I am exhausted

I let you see what I choose to show

Though know one can possibly know

What is going on behind these blue eyes

Fake it till you make it is a common phrase

But concern it does raise

in me

How do I justify those who commit actions that break

And Forsake

Who I am inside.

How do I defend the person I am today

And let the past wash away

When the past is thrown in my face?

I just try and navigate each day with grace

Though at times I fall on my face

But I at least know I have beauty

Despite scars on the inside and out

Despite all the times that I experience doubt

In me

I know I am beautiful

I know I am worth it

I know I am strong

I know that one day, I will fully believe

That I am beautiful.