I hate you.

I hate you because you see right through me.
So open and so bare I cannot hide a thing
You know what is hidden behind these blue eyes
Xray vision piercing through layers and layers of
Barbwire and concrete emotional fences
Protecting my fragile heart.
I hate you because you see right through me.
I wish we could talk, but we can't
You worry, and I know it.
You try to not feel bad, but you do.
You see how broken I can really get.
I hate you for that.
I hate you because I
Can't be all broken inside
I hate you because I
Can't pretend, because you see though every act
I hate you because I
don't want to let anyone close
Yet you are there.
Damn you.
Private inner thoughts and feelings are no longer mine
You know truths that I would rather hide
I say nothing and you set off a nuclear bomb that wipes away
EVERY last protect layer I have been able to build.
Why must you look at me like that?
What must you see all the shit I don't want you to see?
Why can't you just leave me be!
Because you know.
I don't really hate you.
I feel naked and scared
A small child hiding behind grown up walls of resentment, guilt, and fear.
Do you see?
I mean do you really see me.
How can you stand to still be around?